Lil' A and Baby T


Can I just first say how beautiful our kiddos are?!?!?! We are in LOVE!!! Ever since I was a little girl I wondered if when I first saw my children if I would think they are cute or if I would think "I'm gonna need to grow into this?" Crazy, I know, but it's just what I thought. Alas, I thought they were both GORGEOUS the moment I laid eyes on them. I couldn't get over their eyes and lips and hair...every part of their bodies melted me. I've looked at their pictures obsessively and each time I'm in awe at their beauty - external and inner.

ANSWERED PRAYERS ::

  • It's amazing because all along, our biggest prayer has been for boy under 3, girl under 1. God answered!!!!! We were open to a LOT of other combinations, but God knew our heart and chose who was best for us to parent. We are overwhelmed at how God's attentive to the details of our heart.
  • Our 2 kiddos are in the same orphanage - they didn't have to be, but they are. And it seems that they are in the same orphanage as my blog friends' 2 little ones who submitted their dossier on the same day!!!
  • They are from the same region of Ethiopia.
  • Remember how I asked you all to pray for our referral by our anniversary [August 5th] or my birthday [August 9th]? Well, all the pictures we have of them are taken during that window.

God knows and remembers...

LITTLE BOY A :: We saw his pictures first. We have 13 pictures of him, including a picture of him with his birth mom. He has enormous, almond shaped eyes. Luscious full lips. His 2 front teeth remind me of Chiclets. He looks peaceful, shy, and sweet. There are a couple pictures where he has shoes on his feet and he looks a little off-kilter wearing shoes for the first time in his life. His skin is like coffee with creamer! Soooooo cute! He'll be a heart-breaker. We ooooh-ed and ahhh-ed forever looking at his pictures for the first time.

BABY GIRL T :: Next, we opened the pictures of her, and I think that's when I lost it again. We have 6 pictures of her from every angle, mainly just in her diaper. I was so overwhelmed looking at Little A that I finally tipped over when I saw her pictures. She is long and chubby and all kinds of adorable. Her lips are to DIE FOR. The first thing I said to Brian about her is that "I want to suck her lips off - they are so beautiful!" Brian thought I was crazy! She is perfectly in track on the growth chart and developmentally - miraculous. She has chubs all over her little body. Her eyes are gigantic [they look like Brian's, according to my mom], very bright and alert. Her hair looks silky and oh-so curly. She's holding herself up on her tummy. She looks strong and is looking straight at the camera in every picture. Her skin is almost exactly the same coffee color as Little Boy A's. Seriously, she's drop dead gorgeous!

THEIR NAMES: Until our adoption is official - after our 1st trip to Ethiopia - we are going to call them by their birth name. WHY? 2 reasons:

  • We want to do so as a way to honor their birth mother and the reason she named them what she did. We are still strongly considering keeping their birth names as a middle name. Their birth names are filled with meaning!
  • We will not rename them until they are legally ours. We have had Amharic/Ethiopian names picked out for them for a year, and want to protect those names in case our referral would fall through [Dear God - I hope not!!!!!].

PRIVACY IN THEIR STORIES: We are not sharing either of their stories at this point. It's too personal and tender, especially at this point in the process. I already feel a tremendous amount of protectiveness about their little lives and stories. This week I've simply found myself praying for their spirit and those they left behind.

Even as I write about them, there are tears. I can't believe that I get to be their momma, God willing. Please be praying for their continued development, health, that our process continues smoothly and without delay, and that they get to come home before the end of 2010.

AGAIN, please comment here so we can savor your words with our kiddos in the months to come!


**More posts to come this weekend about the day we got the call and what next steps are in front of us, including a time line and prayer requests...

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April L. Diaz

April has been a visionary activist her entire life. She has made it her mission to lead high performing teams and develop leaders in the margins of society while caring for our bodies, mind, and spirit. Secretly, she’s a mix of a total girly girl and a tomboy, and is still crazy about her high school sweetheart, Brian. Together, they co-parent 3 fabulous kiddos and live in Orange County, CA.

A Blessing

A Franciscan Benediction

May God bless you with discomfort at easy answers, half-truths, and superficial relationships - so that you may live deep within your heart.

May God bless you with anger at injustice, oppression, and exploitation of people - so that you may work for justice, freedom, and peace.

May God bless you with tears to shed for those who suffer pain, rejection, hunger and war - so that you may reach out your hand to comfort them and to turn their pain into joy.

And may God bless you with enough foolishness to believe that you can make a difference in the world - so that you can do what others claim cannot be done, to bring justice and kindness to all our children and the poor.
Amen.
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April L. Diaz

April has been a visionary activist her entire life. She has made it her mission to lead high performing teams and develop leaders in the margins of society while caring for our bodies, mind, and spirit. Secretly, she’s a mix of a total girly girl and a tomboy, and is still crazy about her high school sweetheart, Brian. Together, they co-parent 3 fabulous kiddos and live in Orange County, CA.

Before I Blow Out The Candles...

August is arguably my favorite month of the year. It's culmination of summer. It's our anniversary (9 years on the 5th!!). And it's my birthday (31 years young on the 9th). I love this month. All of it. After 9+ months on the wait list, maybe it'll be the month that holds our referral, too!

Which leads me to a prayer request...if I'm doing my math correctly and time lines proceed as predicted (nearly a laughable sentence to write), these next couple weeks are the 11th hour for us. If we'd get our referral in the next 2 weeks, we'd probably have our first Ethiopian court date at the end of October. Then, we'd travel again for our Embassy date 6-8 weeks later to bring them home. Putting all those time frames together, we'd barely make it to bring them home by the end of 2010. If you've been following our journey for more than a few posts, you know this would be a huge deal - emotionally and spiritually - for us. The other factor, is financial. The U.S. government gives a great adoption tax credit for the year you complete your adoption. But if we don't complete our adoption in 2010, we'll have to wait an additional year for a substantial and very helpful tax refund for our expenses. This would be huge and hard to wait for with the expenses involved in adoption and (oh yeah!) parenting!

I've been spending a lot of time meditating these days in Psalm 40. I'm continuing to practice waiting patiently (verse 1), but verse 13 hit me today as a call for help to my God...

Please, Lord, rescue me!
Come quickly, Lord, and help me.

A few other psalms have resonated deeply:

"You are my refuge and my shield; I have put my hope in your word." Psalm 119:114
"Let all that I am wait quietly before God, for my hope is in him." Psalm 62:5

Yet at the end of August, my hope is in God. I wait for him, not for a referral. Still, God invites us to make our requests known to him because he cares. As Psalm 40 says, he turns his ear to hear our cry.

Prayer Request ::
We could bring home our babies

by the end of 2010.
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April L. Diaz

April has been a visionary activist her entire life. She has made it her mission to lead high performing teams and develop leaders in the margins of society while caring for our bodies, mind, and spirit. Secretly, she’s a mix of a total girly girl and a tomboy, and is still crazy about her high school sweetheart, Brian. Together, they co-parent 3 fabulous kiddos and live in Orange County, CA.