Why I Run

IMG_5062 Yesterday I ran my first half marathon. I did it! My time was SLOW but I felt amazing the entire time and flew through the final 4 miles. It was a surreal and supernatural day. The entire week was emotional for me. I was super teary and tender as I considered who I was running for and how much these past 5 months have transformed me.

Yesterday began at 4am, which was really 3am with daylight savings time (who decided this? I want to send them an email.). After a shuttle and bus ride, we arrived at Dodger stadium at 6am. Immediately we entered the Stadium. We had exclusive access inside the Stadium for our Team World Vision pep rally. Over 500 runners were on the team this year! Again, surreal. By 7:25 the gun went off ... and we stood there among the throngs of people waiting for our turn to cross the start line. It was an incredible day. I ran with over 65 runners from Newsong and together we've raised nearly $50,000 for clean water wells in Malawi. Our church has been partnering there for over 5 years. We LOVE our community in Malawi and I know first-hand how transformative clean water is to a community. Team World Vision raised over $700,000 for clean water wells throughout Africa!!!!! CELEBRATE!

One of the most humbling surprises in this journey is that I had the distinct privilege and honor of sharing my story at the Team World Vision dinner. Hundreds of runners gathered the night before the race and my story was a part of the time together. This is my story (in 3 1/2 minutes):

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LQ-bgiDZIqI&feature=em-upload_owner#action=share

Don't want to miss out on donating? Clean water matters a whole bunch. You can give (tax-deductible) HERE.

The best is yet to come. And, YES, I'm running again.

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April L. Diaz

April has been a visionary activist her entire life. She has made it her mission to lead high performing teams and develop leaders in the margins of society while caring for our bodies, mind, and spirit. Secretly, she’s a mix of a total girly girl and a tomboy, and is still crazy about her high school sweetheart, Brian. Together, they co-parent 3 fabulous kiddos and live in Orange County, CA.

Running for Transformation

Remember me? I blog here about every 7 weeks. I'm breaking the silence to alert you and invite you into a MAJOR event coming in my life. I am running my race ... nay, a half marathon! ... on Sunday, March 9th with Team World Vision. There's a pretty powerful backstory to that last sentence. If you missed it, you've gotta read it (HERE). This is really happening.

My first training run was on October 19th. I ran 3 miles in 45 minutes. Whoa. Since then, I've only run another 26 times but my pace and mileage have grown considerably. I've run alone. I've run with our group from Newsong. I've run in my neighborhood, on my favorite aqueduct path, in the Dominican Republic, and with my 22-year old baby brother. I've run on days when I can't wait for my feet to hit the pavement and on days when I'd rather take a nap. I've run in the rain, in the humidity of the D.R., and in the gorgeous, mild, SoCal winter sun. In all those circumstances, running is changing me.

Of course, I'm fitter, healthier, and stronger than I've ever been as a mom, but my soul is also stronger. I've transformed how I look at food, fitness, and friendships. I've been confronted by my deep desires for comfort and the path of least resistance. I've grown in humility as I take on something I'm not naturally good at and discipline the heck out of myself. I've run mile upon mile while listening to leadership talks and messages from God's Word. I've run while praying for our sponsor kids in Malawi, knowing that my running also deeply affects them. In case you're wondering, their names are Felesina (whom we met 4 years ago in Malawi), Makiyi, and Pitilzani.

This race is about me. This race is about our friends in Malawi. This race is about fighting an injustice that I have clean water and my brothers and sister do not. Yet.

I'm looking for 12 more people to sponsor me $50 each to reach my goal. For every person that gives $50, one of our friends in Malawi will benefit from clean water for life. You can sponsor me HERE. I dare you. Do it. Stretch yourself, as I stretch my running legs and give a little coin. You won't regret it and you probably won't even miss that extra money.

Our church's goal is to raise $50,000! :) Let me take a second to say how proud I am of our church. There are nearly 100 runners from Newsong who are running. Many of our church's pastoral team and leadership are among them. Middle school and high school students winsomely coerced their parents to run with them. A 50-something year old missionary friend of mine is running his first race - the FULL LA marathon. College students are running. This group gathers every Saturday morning at 7:15am to run around the Newport Beach bay. Every day there are Facebook updates, mileage posts, and words of encouragement from fellow teammates. They've been my fuel. Regularly we get updates from our Team World Vision leader, John Huddle, with inspiration and tactical advice from which goo is best (yes, that's a thing), how to get the best shoes, how to avoid an injury, what foods are best before a long run, and more. Weekly I also get emails from our Newsong Team Captains. Sam C, Hanju L, and John K, thank you for giving yourself to this team and these people we run for. Your leadership and passion are carrying me.

Please, join me. It'll remind me that I'm not alone in this quest to see every human being have access to clean water. It'll encourage the heck out of me as I (dauntingly) look at the March 9th race date. And maybe your gift will be a step in a new transformation journey of your own.

Check out this video about how Water is (literally) Life for Malawians.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vy6XkncAr3I

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April L. Diaz

April has been a visionary activist her entire life. She has made it her mission to lead high performing teams and develop leaders in the margins of society while caring for our bodies, mind, and spirit. Secretly, she’s a mix of a total girly girl and a tomboy, and is still crazy about her high school sweetheart, Brian. Together, they co-parent 3 fabulous kiddos and live in Orange County, CA.

(Up Until Now) I Hate Running

I hate running. This has been my story. I've made all kinds of erroneous statements of how I've loathed running. I've ridiculously claimed that I'd rather be eaten by a lion than run. I've built all kinds of layers around this story. It's not working for me anymore.

It's all been an excuse, a facade, a cover up.

A few weeks ago I made an emotional commitment to run the LA half marathon with World Vision and our team from Newsong, and alongside my super-athlete husband (who will be running his first FULL marathon!!). The race is on Sunday, March 9th ... in 123 days. I've started training even though official training doesn't begin for a few weeks. And I have to admit, I don't hate running. I kind of like it.

Up until now, I've hated the idea of running and what running represents for me.

A few weeks ago when I had my emotional breakthrough (or breakdown...whatever you want to call it), it revealed a couple dominant excuses and lies I've been living under for years. As I tearfully made my public commitment, I began realizing what running has represented for me.

First, I've hated running because I'm not good at it. It's painful. I look stupid. I'm slow. I'm far from competent, an expert, or pretty when I run. Running reveals my ugly self, a self I don't like to expose or live in. I've hid behind "I hate running" because I don't like to feel much less broadcast my weaknesses. I like to put my best foot forward, and running doesn't let that happen. Running chases down my weaknesses and forces me to confront them.

Second, I have a traumatic experience around running. When I was in elementary school my best friend's mother was brutally attacked while she was running. It seared something deep in my soul. I associated running with trauma. The two were inextricably bound with one another. Since I was a little girl running represented being hurt, lives being destroyed, and years of heartache. It wasn't worth it to me.

But I brought those lies into the light. I've decided they will not have the final word in my life. I will overcome this hurdle.

Brian has been begging me to run with him for a couple years. My health necessitates I take better care of my body. I want my kids to grow up with a fit momma, not an excuse-filled momma. My friends at Newsong have been urging me to join their cause on behalf of our friends in Malawi. For a very long time I've known I need to run this race, but I've made excuses. Natural limitations and these lies have won the race. No more.

I'm running. I'm running for life. I'm running for my health and family. I'm running because the truth has set me free. I'm running because I want to be an obedient woman more than anything else.

Up until now, I hated running. This is my new story.

If you want to partner with me as I run for life and clean water in Malawi, I'd be honored. You can support me HERE.

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April L. Diaz

April has been a visionary activist her entire life. She has made it her mission to lead high performing teams and develop leaders in the margins of society while caring for our bodies, mind, and spirit. Secretly, she’s a mix of a total girly girl and a tomboy, and is still crazy about her high school sweetheart, Brian. Together, they co-parent 3 fabulous kiddos and live in Orange County, CA.